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Name: Anna
Birthday: 9/11/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: Pit Worship; the country, horses and etc;driving; quiet times; Missions
Expertise: Horses and quiet time
Occupation: Student
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Member Since:
4/25/2007
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| Um i would like to explain my last blog... When i said i have been in recovery the last two yrs. I didn't mean recovery from any medical or mental problems. Someone i know asked me what i was recovering from and when i wrote the last blog i ment simply that the last two years i have been spiritually recovering and healing from some of the choices i made. Sorry i really dont want people to think that i was recovering from like drinking or anything. Anna | | |
| Lord, I have always thought you lead some by their hand with you walking in front of them. And there are others i believe you guide standing behind them allowing them to walk while you hold their arms from behind. I have always pictures my self the latter but if you could take my hand and show me the way i will follow. I want to see you before me... the darkness is scary and tormenting my thoughts. I have been in recovery now for 2 yrs now and although they have been hard. I have never seen God the way i see him now. I have never longed for or loved Anyone! as much as i long for Him. Morocco is still important to me but not as important as even my quiet times now. I have began to see the doors open and I was released from my waiting period. Only to be scared to find my self in a new chapter, when you go from have no oppurtunities to lots of opputunity it is kinda of scary. My God is not a God of works but a God of fruit. Some have few fruit but the taste is Magnificent and other have large quantities of fruit that can feed a multitude. And to God they are all equal. For fear of returning to that place I have a hard time choosing which door he wants. Until He so gracfully met with me last night in our place. I disscussed with him our options ( as if he didn't already know) I broke down and told him i was scared cause i wanted to be where ever He was, I was scared i would choose one and he would be gone. He said to me " I long to be with you also...and there is no where you can go that i am not already there." How amazing is he that he would choose to reside with me even if that place is wrong. When i was there at the parties and on the dirt and mud roads through all the drinks and all the cursing and all the times i shook my fist in his face. He choose to reside within me still. " If your eyes are set... If your seeking me You will be blessed...no matter where you go,no matter what choice you make, I'll guide your steps firmly so they are grounded for others to see!" ~~~ Your Father | | |
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|  | Standing alone Lord, Where do you will me to go . After all is lost, but you, your have found me alone in sorrow you are making me whole, in silence. Take my heart so full of anger and hate. Turn it into a heart full of love. Why have you made me so different then others, My passion doesnt lie where their passion lies. I ponder why I feel I do not belong. But with you alone do I feel secure And all I can hope is that you are still here. That you will continue to form me into the person I need to be. The person needed to full fill this purpose. As I grow mold me as I hurt heal me and in all my sorrows do I not look toward you Lord make me into a great witness and likeness of your glory. Take me from all who separate me from you. Good and evil they are the same if they separate me from your will. Fill my thoughts. Destroy my feelings. Bring forth truth, love, and faithfulness. I can stand alone with you. But if there is a day when I dont see your face, if there is a day when my knowledge of you is gone. Take from here, take me from this earth I cannot bare the thought of being outside of your presence. Strip me o lord. Your servant, your willing slave, Anna |
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